My Heart and Mind

=_= seriously

2012-02-05T07:52:00.001+08:00

It was a post written at that moment without thinking.

Its so immature to go through one's twitter , facebook and blog just to see what the other is commenting just to put it on FB n Twitter. Seriously? U expect me to publicise it on twitter n fb too after this? Pft.
Unlike that, a blog will not be read unless u really are looking for something to waste your time with.

Im amused.

Since im immature.. That is so mature.

Lost

2012-02-04T21:10:00.001+08:00

I hate all the negative thoughts that has been in my mind lately.

An Update

2011-12-17T09:18:00.002+08:00

All I have been blogging about is Kpop.

Not much of my own story? well.. Its complicated.

Ill write it out when I myself knows what is going on with me.

For now, THE private blog is my paradise.

Bye.

Beautiful Concept

2011-12-03T11:50:00.001+08:00

Blah Blah Blah

2011-12-02T06:33:00.001+08:00

Handwriting analysis

2011-11-25T19:44:00.001+08:00

You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

Im In Love

2011-11-20T21:38:00.001+08:00

with JAEJIN

nothing new,

i just keep falling in love deeper

keke

Day by Day

2011-11-20T07:57:00.001+08:00

I have a simple Happy Life

Im Thankful for that.

I hope its not too late to appreciate everything that I have till now.

I always wonder why I turn out so selfish.

Sigh~

My life should not just be about just myself

But its been that way

the way I live

"Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.-John Wooden

Immortal Song Hongki

2011-11-19T20:06:00.001+08:00

Im Totally Impressed.

I wish the whole world would know how impressive FTI and Hongki is.

ITS A DREAM COME TRUE

2011-11-19T08:05:00.001+08:00

PLAY ! FTISLAND CONCERT WILL BE HELD IN SINGAPORE ON THE 15TH OF JANUARY 2012 !!

TELL ME IM NOT DREAMING.

*SCREAM*

i DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY! I REALLY HAVE TO GO.

MORE LKE I NEEEED TO GO!

AND ANOTHER ADD ON TO MY LIST OF FTISLAND CONCERT!!!!!!!!

What Time is it?

2011-11-19T07:47:00.001+08:00

Its 2PM !!

18.11.2011

I SAW WOOYOUNG!!!!!

keke

We skipped class last Friday and went to 2PM's HI-5 session at Jurong Point.

I wasnt really excited initially, but once BP test was over, I really couldnt wait to see them.

Luck was on our side again =D

We went there and there were baricades all around the stage. The mall was small, so fans were not allowed to stand around at level 1. We were there at 3, we couldnt stand anywhere coz there were many fans there already.

We decided to eat at Pizza Hut which was just next to the stage.

SMART CHOICE or what?

Me and riz even checked out around the carpark area so we could stalk them yesterday.

and so THEY FINALLY CAME!!

and what?!?!

My WOOYOUNG was standing at the very end, so I have a very clear view of him!!!!

*scream*

When he came, he didnt see us, but fans around here started chanting his name, and he heard, n nod his head and turn at us n smiled !!!!

We keep calling him n he look super cute

*melt*

Nickhun was talking and we got his attention when we frantically waved at him. He look my way and smiled OMG

*dies*

Before the super short event end, wooyoung look our way and made a heart sign and smiled

CAN HE BE ANY CUTER?!?!

and so right after it ended, me RIz and Atikah ran all the way back to the carpark.

Not many fans know how to get to the carpark throught the other door, coz when we ran nobody was following us.

We reached there and waited for a while..

The came out and went in the van rally fast but im not sure who but one of them mayb Junsu almost tripped, but he didnt fall. LOL

Then me, riz and Atikah went to the hotel but it turned out that they went to the stadium to practice.

And so that's my experience with 2PM.

Google Plus

2011-11-18T06:54:00.001+08:00

Im on Google Plus =)

This is a post after a long break. But im not updating =X

Long story next time. Im busy with BP test and Projects now.

Distance

2011-11-09T07:50:00.000+08:00

In Love Again

Dont You Just Love His Voice

Late for School

2011-11-09T07:48:00.000+08:00

Always.

Late for School.

It a Fan Girl Thing

2011-10-15T18:39:00.002+08:00

Things I do Everymorning after waking up :

Vote for FT ISLAND at MNET MCOUNTDOWN

Search for them crazily at melon, naver and soribada

Go to their MV and chat with my PRIMADONNA friends

Stream their song on MNET

Listen to Like The Birds and Even Your Tears on repeat

PRIMADONNA ♥ ♥

Full MV IS OUT

2011-10-10T11:53:00.001+08:00

This is a remake song from 1980.

Nice remake.

Five Treasures

2011-10-08T13:32:00.002+08:00

Memory In FT Island

2011-10-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

Ridiculous. I AM

2011-10-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

Im such a loser.

I Fucking have No Self Confidence.

Pathetic.

I HATE IT

that I do stupid things and it haunts me FOREVER

Everything just keep draining me of my self-confidence, It’s not like I had much to begin with.

I have so many flaws and insecurities that I don't even know how to look for something good about myself anymore.

and i hate most of all, how i cant accept all of the things about myself.

OH FUCK IM FLOODING MY THOUGHTS IN SELF HATE.

OH FUCK MY LIFE.

I need a moment to FUCKING GET OUT OF THIS.

Secrets

2011-10-06T19:27:00.001+08:00

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I've been on the brink, so

[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight to cold?
I don't really like my flow, no, so

[CHORUS]

Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'ma tell you everything

[CHORUS x2]

All my secrets away (x2)

Its The End Of The World

2011-10-05T21:17:00.001+08:00

The past few days, ive used twitter to rant about all the frustrations.

Im not going to post about it.

Im not going to explain myself for saying all those words about someone.

I think its better if no one talk about it anymore.

Even though,

Everyone is still frustrated,

Everyone is still thinking about it,

Its the best solution for us and for her,

to just keep things quiet.

In 10 years time,

sooner or later,

when things Finally get to her,

when she finally understand what we are talking about,

Then, we will come to accept then forget.

Everyone have to go through their own war,

they will have to learn from their own mistakes.

Until the day she learn and understand.

and I will learn from this mistake,

so will everyone else.

Al-Fatihah

2011-10-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

He will be dearly missed by all.

My uncle was a great father, brother, friend & husband.

He was a truly nice and kind man.

He will help whenever he can.

He was funny.

He never fails to make us smile.

He Loves his children and grandchildren.

He would always give them what they want.

My nephews and niece are always really happy whenever they are with him.

Everyone was praying and hoping that he will pull through.

From the moment he was admitted to the hospital on Sunday,

till the time he passed away on Monday at 3:43pm.

Lots of tears were shed.

but we all have to redha that you have answered ALLAH's call.

Al-Fatihah to my uncle

HAJI JAMIL BIN SAHAL

May he be placed with HIS faithful servants,

Insya Allah! Amin!

Semoga rohnya dicucuri Rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama orang orang yang beriman.

Invalid Arguments

2011-10-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

Are there such things as RIGHT and WRONG nowadays?

Smart.

The Problem with smart people is that they like to be right and sometimes will defend their point to the death rather than admit they are wrong.

Its one amazingly strong character.

If only they all defend the right things.

The right people.

JUST SAYING

Self Conscious

2011-10-03T10:13:00.001+08:00

Thinking too much

2011-10-03T09:56:00.003+08:00

Its ruining my LIFE.

I get too dramatic at times ~

2011-09-29T22:27:00.001+08:00

If my niece ever stumbled upon my blog. She would be shocked.

I hope she doesnt have my link.
Kids now days and the internet =.=

She is eight.

This Blog Is Not Meant For Those Under 15.

WARNING

NOT FILTERED

Ill get my gun and shoot your head

2011-09-29T20:54:00.000+08:00

MY TREASURES ARENT LIKE THAT YOU FUCKING OLD MAN.
WANNA DIE?

and allkpop should lean how to fucking write articles without creating further misunderstanding.

FUCKING PISSED OFF

I listed that many bad points about myself

2011-09-29T10:07:00.003+08:00

DOES ANYONE THINK THAT I NEED A PERSONALITY CHANGE?

I DO !

Im not being a psycho, trying to be what im not.

Maybe you can call it Self Improvement.

"I can change my character and thereby make different decisions in the future. But what about this character that I have created?"

" Choices stay the same unless the person changes."

I think I always act according to MY WANT.

I am selfish most of the time.

Always filled with anxiety, stress and worry.

My own brain is haywire that I cant explain what I'm thinking most of the time.

I can be mean and sarcastic.

Im a coward.

Not really that responsible.

Too sensitive.

A little introvert at times.

I dont share my feelings with others well.

Always uncomfortable around people.

WOAH.

Damn, I really need a character change.

FT Island

2011-09-28T21:06:00.003+08:00

Jongki >.<

cr: Limkahyan Tmblr

I cant explain myself

2011-09-28T20:52:00.002+08:00

I feel really sorry to my Silat friends.
Cant I just run away and disappear without explanation?

I feel bad.
Why does it turn out like this?
It just did.

Maybe ill come back for fun
but if i do i will start regretting not coming for so long.
I dont want to regret.
Coz I remember how much I love going to training.

I should not be half hearted in what I do.
If I am doing this I should just do and not turn back right?
If only u know that it is not easy for me either.

The day i finally did my chores

2011-09-28T20:44:00.001+08:00

Today my mood is weird. The first thing I did after waking up is CLEAN UP THE PILES OF CLOTHES which has been laying there for a few days.
Im a little perfectionist for certain things, but not when it comes to cleaning.
My room is always in a mess. My hamster cage is a lot more neater.

So FINALLY today I decided to clean up everything. Settled the clothes and placed it into the drawer nicely. Hang all the clothes according to the colour as it was supposed to originally be. Threw out all that I dont need and wont be wearing. Hanged the bags in its place and not leave it lying on the floor.

Changed The position of my bed. It took a alot of planning and ~~courage~~ >.<
My sis always has her own ideas on how the room should look. She changed it back to the way she wanted it the last time, so i was a lil scared to change it now.
Tried my luck. Texted her how it was. Didnt get a reply. BUT WENT AHEAD WITH IT STILL. kekkeee
She did complain a lil though. =/ but I have to be firm. Im tired of the same position. At least the room is not messy now.

I hand washed all the clothes that needed to be. Hanged them. all washed seperately because of the dye -.-
but did it aniway. The mood was just there.

Vacumed and moped the whole house. Happy coz everything is clean now =D

I have new rules that ive been thinking about. And cleaning is gonna be in it. Will put it up when ive finished listing it up )

Its HOLIDAY

2011-09-28T20:29:00.000+08:00

All that ive been doing is rot at home.

Nothing else.

Its HOLIDAY.

Nineteen. 19

2011-09-27T20:23:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to me.
Time flies. I cant believe im nineteen this year.
ah~~ so i have to be an adult >.<"
I wish im 6.
Kindergarten was fun. =)

On the 24th, my family surprised me with pizza hut bday pizzza! =)

Im glad that as time goes by, im a lot more closer to my family. Kindda reminds me of the "usual teenage growing up rebellious prefer friends than family phase". HAHAH.
Ive grown out of that now =D

Im happy just to spent it with people I <3 LOVE.
Thank You for the wishes evryone ^ ^ I am trully happy that I received those mesges from yall <3 <3
Gee texted me the next day. Guilty but cute. keke XD
Its ok, I wont stay mad at my besties for long. I know you didnt meant to forget =)

On the 26th, I had lunch with my forever besfriends Amal and Ayun. Went to F.I.S.H and talked alot with them. It truly amazes me how different we all are. I love how we stayed friend till now. Love u guys to bits n pieces <3 <3 This marked our 6th/7th year as besfriends and 13th year hat we knew each other existed. keke.

Met up with Rizwanah <3 and went shopping!!! Spent so much but didnt care. Love everything I bought that day. A birthday treat for myself from myself. ^^

Dinner with Gee and Riz at 313 and more SHOPPING !! Gee bought shoes from NewLook. I was tempted to buy but I didnt at last. keke. Spent too much for the day.

That is my 19th Birthday. Maybe turning into an adult isnt so bad after all. I can shop all I want.
=D

... and there is only 1 semester left before graduating.

2011-09-24T08:40:00.001+08:00

I increased my GPA by 0.03. It was pathetic.
Can I ever reach 3.5?
sigh ~~~

KMV 2011

2011-09-23T19:44:00.003+08:00

The reason I was lazy to write this post was because I recently lost my 500gb of file which include my KMV videos ='(
The HD crashed.
Sad.
----------------------------------------
Music wave 2011

My Five Treasure were there ^ ^

"ALOT of ppl there alrdy and LOTS of ppl wearing BB tee! so coool! went in, search for our seat only to realised it was way up. kinda sad but then the guard told us that they move everyone in that block dwn. so we got nearer! HAHAHHA! lucky us!
Concert wise, IT WAS AWESOME! me and wyda literally scream all the way! FT island gets the ball rolling with love love love,hello hello,bing bing and i hope! we sang along LOUD! then the rookies grp. okla just cheer for them since its alrdy a concert what. but nadilah was getting bored. HAHHAHAHA! she was waiting for 2ne1 and BB. love U-KISS performance. binguel binguel,0330,everyday and man man hani. ALL MY FAV!
Then after them was 2ne1! I SWEAR EVERYONE GOT ALIVE! THE WHOLE STADIUM WAS SHAKING! hahhahahha! ppl in my block starts standing ad and dancing to EH,EH,EH ,EH 2NE1! awesome shit ever!!!! 2NE1 kill it! then after fire, it was im the best. THIS SONG KILLS IT. EVERYONE,LITERALLY EVERYONE IS JUMPING AND SCREAMING THEIR LUNGS OUT! after 2ne1, who else right! ITS BIG BANG! they start off with tonight with GD smashing the guitar at the end! I SCREAM AND SCREAM! then seungri solo performance, strong baby and what shld i do. followed by taeyang where you at and ill be there. then it was GDTOP. again,everyone gets higher then ever, they starts with knock out,oh yea and high high! I WAS DEFINITELY HIGH! hahahha! kept jumping and singing along! best night ever! GD gave alot of fan service LOVE IT ALOT! THOU I WAS FAR :) THE CONCERT WAS 3.5 HRS ! IT ENDED AT 11.30PM. was rushing for the last train laa. lucky here still have buses. seriously had my fun there."

It was fun.

Im glad I went there with Riz too =)

Im a lil lazy to type it out s i just quote it from Riz blog ^^
But all I remember was that It was SO MUCH FUN SCREAMING AND SHOUTING AND JUMPING!
Would love to go to another FTI concert ^^

My side of the story

2011-09-23T19:21:00.004+08:00

Ah, so things came to an end.
There is more to this story obviously, but the other parts are just meant to be forgotten, Its confusing isnt it?
It is supposed to be.
At least by writing bits and pieces here I wouldnt forget everything.
So this is how the story goes.

June 13th -

My first day at the drug store. Nope KT didnt bother coming in to see me. It was just me and Nikki. I got to know her and we got along well. She explained how things are done in the drug store. It was boring. The drug store was. Always finding things to do. Always.

Things were not perfect I shall say. Im not a perfectionist in every way. Things just have to be perfect in a certain way. They way it should be.

I was pissed. I controlled myself because we need to do things together. We eventually did. Who cares if things were not done in the drug store before? Im here now, so WE are going to do it together.

So 3 weeks passed by, things were as boring, we did a few things for the drug store, expiry check n stuff. Got to know more about each other. It was fine.

July 1st -

"We are in this together". Problems starts to occur, we both decided on certain things that apparently causes more problems. I was not good at handling stress. Especially things like CASH DISCREPANCIES.

Ah, I don't know where to start with that story.

Problem after problem starts to occur. Scolded by the lecturers. Stress like shit. This kind of things never happen in Watsons. Nope. Defended Nikkila cause I just couldn't accept the fact that I wasn't scolded. Defended her cause I thought that KT was biased. I cant believe I cried twice in a row in front of KT. It was dramatic. I dont even want to tell the story here. ah, i'd rather forget it.

July 7th -

I thought things were supposed to be settled. The previous week was dramatic enough. Finally meeting up with KT after a month.

That morning, things started to get suspicious. Nikki was called to the office for an interrogation. It did not concern me. But I was worried.

Finally a talk with KT. Told me things that I wish he wouldnt. Maybe. I dont know since when I start hating, but I knew she lied to me. sigh ~~ I didnt want to work with someone I dont trust. It was just going to be the 2 of us, so i'd prefer to not think too much. But we are talking about me here. Since when do I 'not think too much'.

July 8th -

There was a surprise, MEL came in that day. She has her own side of the story, but she was joining us for the next 2 month.

She knew.

I did too.

July 11th -

I felt betrayed. It was personal. I defended her. So I decided.

But somehow I regretted it. I didnt want to be so mean. She is not a close friend but I was nice to her just a month ago. I dont want to turn into a bitch. So she stayed.

For 2 months -

When Mel came, things got better. We all even got closer. It was not immediately. But we eventually did.

sigh~ was it a good thing? I mean, we knew that she got used to us. We are all friends now. So all we did was remind her. We covered for her.

Mel was really close to KT, and things in the drug store was fine.

Mel and me, our character are 360 degrees different. WE are like opposite ends.

I was glad. I tend to be bossy when things does not go the way it should be. but I cant boss her around =) Glad I cant boss her around, she would hate me if I did. I know how my character is, I admit im bossy.

Ah, so things came to an end.

There is more to this story obviously, but the other parts are just meant to be forgotten, Its confusing isnt it?

It is supposed to be.

At least by writing bits and pieces here I wouldnt forget everything.

It was just drug store =)
Dramatic.
But I did have fun.
Really.
Learned from this experience.
Gained 2 new friends.
It wasnt that bad afterall.
Any different person would have gain a totally different experience in an exact same situation.

Just my side of the story.

2 months later

2011-09-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

I should continue writing ne?

Where should I start.

Let It Go !

2011-07-01T07:58:00.000+08:00

FT Island Japanese MV for their new release LET IT GO ! =D

Lyrics by Hongki and Minhwan, composed by Jonghun !!

Loving so much <3 <3

Younha starry night

2011-06-28T19:11:00.001+08:00

[news] 2011.06.14 FT island – Younha’s Starry Night Interview

Posted on 17. June 2011 by bo0ya

Younha: Instead of saying kiss, why not say who wants to bobo [T/N: bobo means kiss in Korean] the most…. Sweet live filled with the special band FT Island
Hongki: Want to kiss ah kiss
Younha: Compared to Kiss, these few here can turn this night into something sweet, welcome FT Island~
Hongki: Bo~bo~bo~~~ (quite loud – -)

Younha: This is the first time you guys guest at “Starry Night” right?
Hongki: Yes
Younha: Miss you guys so much
Hongki: Whatever!
Younha: Really? Oh I also follow Hongki-ssi, but Hongki-ssi never reply or follow me!
Hongki: Really? Sorry TT TT
Younha: Jaejin knows
Jaejin: Yes

Younha: Everyone who wrote new song for comeback, it seems like we’re missing one?
Hongki: Right now Jonghun is in Jeonju, making me want to eat rice (Jeonju is famous with rice) He’s filming a movie. Movie Star~

Hongki: Lately, Jonghun’s been saying “I am Jongstar” because my other name is “Hongstar”. He said his other name is “Jongstar”, this child is ridiculous hahahahaha. He just called that he’s listening to this radio
Younha: Well then let us talk more about the one who’s not here~ ^^
Fan: Wah~Our fantastic will kill him (pointing to Jaejin – -)!!

Fan: It is definitely shinier/brighter through the camera kkkkkk
Younha: This is radio. Oh does Jaejin have anything to say?
Hongki: That’s Mashin ah! Somewhat black ><
Jaejin: (flighty) mustache!!
Younha: Since Jaejin has already become a man right
Jaejin: Because I just woke up…. So right now it grew a lot. (pointing at hongki) You can’t always make fun of me TT TT
Hongki: I know I know/alright alright

Fan: Long time no see FT Island oppa, It’s Kiss Day~~ and today is also my birthday oh~
All: Happy birthday ^^
Hongki: Today is you birthday, then you should have received many kiss
Younha: Aiyo, if you have received a lot of kiss then something bad might happen/that’s not good = =

Fan: Even only listening to the Radio, I can feel FT Island’s charisma!
Younha: Right now these children are able to show off their charisma
Hongki: Because we debut together (pointing at Younha)
Younha: Yeah, we’ve watched each other grow
Hongki: Uhn, we have become adults now
Younha: I am surprised about Minhwan

Jaejin: The first time I saw him he was just an elementary kid
Younha: From a noona’s perspective, the feelings are somewhat mixed. In the past, it’s “noona I’m your fan ah (>_<),” “I really like the Japanese album oh (>_<)” It moves noona’s heart with such cuteness. Right now it’s “Younha-ssi, how are you (in deep-voice).”
All: Ah~~~~~

Younha: When carrying out abroad activities, most worried about is, when having Korean activities, what will Japanese fans do, when having Japanese activitiess, what will Korean fans do? What does Jaejin think?
Jaejin: Like lately, we have more Japanese activities, some Korean fans would say, “Aren’t you guys tired.”
Hongki: Voice is really cute (imitating Jaejin’s voice) hehehe

Jaejin: So for this album, we have worried for a long time. Finally, we decided to produce this album, wanted to say let the Korean fans see us. So then comeback.
Hongki: Lately I wanted to call our Korean fans babies. This time our babies have also waited for a long time, so we want to them to see our working-hard looks.

Minhwan: Not long ago, Hongki hyung bought a new pair of shoes, so then he tweeted “My baby has arrived.” But because fan is also baby, shoe is also baby (Even though Hongki used different words, but the words also have meaning of baby, so can see that the words have similar meanings)
Younha: Hurry up and explained it to the fan ><

Hongki: How should I say it… (background music suddenly became soothing) Pft! … Actually, if you compare the words closely, you will find out that one is baby and one is child. Baby is more close. Child is like my real child = = because I bought those shoes ^^

Younha: Now experts/authors are helping, saying that baby is more standard language, and child is not standard language (more for spoken language)
Hongki: Yeah! Baby is more standard language! So Primadonna should be called baby! Child is my shoes >< Mr. Expert, love you oh <3

Younha: Didn’t FT Island sang an animation’s ending theme some in Japan, what song is it?
Jaejin: It’s for “Toriko” the song is SATISFACTION, it talks about the story of a gourmand. Little kids really like that one.
Hongki: Yeah, I was also surprised. Isn’t XXX selling our CD right, so the result is that the little young ones bought more, not those elementary ones…. But even younger kids

Younha: Minhwan, you say something ah
Minhwan: I don’t have much to say, I am usually quiet
Hongki: Should be relax, don’t we usually see each other (with Younha)
Younha: Before it was relaxing, but now it feels kind of weird
Jaejin: Actually, Minhwan, don’t know why the more he grows, the more he’s like this
Hongki: Concentrates on the image in front of ladies

Hongki: Lately he wouldn’t wear clothes that would not show off his body! So we would always say, ah, you wearing like this… rehearsal time, other singers will be looking. He still wears like that!
Younha: Your hyungs would get hurt like that. Apologise to your hyungs
Minhwan: Hyungs, sorry. Right now I am 20 years old, I’m naïve and don’t know much, sorry.

Younha: Seunghyun, I usually don’t have much chances seeing you
Seunghyun: Later I would with the other members… (meaning seeing Younha more)
Younha: Uhn, I hope we will get to know each other more
Seunghyun: I will think about it
All: Oh~~~~~

Younha: FT Island debuted in 2007, right now is your 5th year
Hongki: Not long ago we passed our 4th anniversary. Aren’t we the same ><
Younha: Oh, even if it is, but I have always wanted to deny, hoping that I am always a newbie. But time flies by real fast, and age keeps on growing TT TT

Younha: FT Island had many hit songs, so far right now, what song would you want to show to the world?
Hongki: The time of our first album, almost the whole album is about love. Personally I love “Don’t Love”
Younha: Ah, I remember that time you always promote that song
Hongki: Yeah, I really love that song a lot.

Source: Younha’s Starry Night Radio Interview
Korean to Chinese Translation:ellenzhou45 @ Weibo
Chinese to English Translation:jennijenjen9 @ Silh0uette

The Drug Store

2011-06-27T11:13:00.002+08:00

Im sitting here in the store, stoning while listening to 2PM's Hands Up album, waiting for customers to come

Decided to blog a post. . . . . There is NOTHING to blog about either =_="

At the same time thinking if i should even complain. Lets see, I have all the time in the world to slack during attachment, Im listening to awesome songs plus karaoke n dancing in the store, I can sit n tweet all day, I watch Youtube vids all day even without the sound, watch DRAMAS in mute and all i have to do is clean n manage the store which isnt that bad, its all slack plus a litttle work. hmmmm

Where else, everyone have complains about their workplace, this n that. BUT at lease they have WORK TO DO and PAY to enjoy at the end of the month rite?? rite?? even if there are going to be so many dramas. No?

hmmmmm... I prefer Watsons though. New experiences is more of what i expected during attachment rather than what I do everyday at home which is watching KPOP vids n slack. SIGH~~~

There is a reason why I love FTI

2011-06-26T08:41:00.000+08:00

I listened to it without my headphone at first, but couldnt really hear the details..

but now I cant stop abusing the replay button.. hehe

Immortal Song is a show where Idol "true" singers battle against each other and somebody will win each week.

For me, it doesnt matter who wins, coz they all really sing extremely well,

its so rare to watch the idol singers actually SING.

except my HONGKI ofcourse. [Im biased =P don't argue]

Starlight Moonlight ^ ^

2011-06-25T19:12:00.001+08:00

Health @ NYP

2011-06-25T17:46:00.000+08:00

First day at school for attachment was . . . (?)
seriously, KT didnt even bother visiting me. HAH

The whole week was just me getting used to life as such. As such that is dramas, food and slack =_=.
I should add in a whole lots of cleaning too. Coz thats all that I basically do if there are no stocks matters for us to be bothered about. FML.

2 weeks over now, n guess what? NOTHING CHANGED.
Everyones complaining, LOL. Now im not sure to be glad or just complain n complain about that fucked up place.

Im just glad that I can get along with Nikkila =)
Hope that other guy wont be posted with us. EEEIIKKKSSSS 0.o

life is just lovely

2011-06-25T16:12:00.000+08:00

Boredom makes me do crazy things.

Do you know that i have been staring at this blank post for hours?

There you go, there is nothing going on with me.

BORED

DEATH

hello hello. Im back !

2011-06-10T15:57:00.005+08:00

Lets see. how long has it been? 4 months?! WOOOWWWWW. I did not know that I'd be dead THIS long. kekeke.

Aniways. I have tons of stuff to update about. Not sure how to start it either. Ill try my best to recall about what's been happening lately. =D

Lets see... I'll go get my schedule notebook so i can this exactly right. Not easy since its been 4 long months already. =S

ps. I think my vocab suck even more than it used to. =X

What else?

2011-06-10T15:56:00.001+08:00

February..lets see.

We had exams that month. Was really stressed out with practical tests and presentations the week before. Still, I studied damn hard for the exam, we all did. Went to our usual Level 4 design block and studied for hours and hours. I can go on and on about how much we studied, but then it will just be like . . . . yea we all get it, we really studied damn hard =_=".

One of those days I remember me Riz and Hani got distracted and ended up discussing a topic wayyyyy far from what we were supposed to. *cough*

errrrr, i dont think i should talk about that here. =P

ANIWAYS, so results was a few weeks after, here are mine ...

GPA went up to 3.25. Not bad, but not good either. =( Should have tried a lil harder. I HATE ALL THOSE Bs. seriously.

I decided

2011-06-10T15:55:00.001+08:00

When I posted my last post, I was really troubled about Silat. hmmm.. Its not that im not troubled about it now. Its just that, I THINK I've made my decision. =S

I did came to my last training before my attachment. I didnt get to do as well as I wanted to. Its like even my body is telling me what everyone else is. SIGH~

Didn't participate in IVP 2011. and I am not participating in the upcoming competition either.

Its just very complicated. and I don't feel like talking to anybody this time. Really it feels very dramatic in my head, and that is enough for me, I dont want to have to think about what the rest are thinking. URGH. Coz if I start talking to people, it really seems like NOTHING to them, but it just gets more complicated for me if that happens. anyone get it?? forget it.

Some problems are just not meant for people to know. Not like I think they will understand either, even if they try.

My attachment started 4 days after my last paper. Imagine that. So yea. I have been too busy to to even go training. and I have more important stuff to think about. So I have not been feeling guilty for a long time now, and im not sure I want to start thinking about it. Not now.

Is 3 months that long?

2011-06-10T15:54:00.001+08:00

So here is a long post about my attachment with Watson's Pharmacy.

I got my attachment with Aisyah. Truthfully, I was worried coz I though it was gonna be awkward. Well, it was a lil at first. But I think it went well. and I think we got closer than before since the attachment =)

Aniways, I was attached to Bedok for the first month, Tampines for the second month, Airport for a week and lastly IMM for 3 weeks.

On the first day, it was kind of awkward. LoL, i went to BC and met John. He told me that he didnt receive any letter about any attachment student 0.O eeiikksss. I panicked a little. Then yea, I was supposed to go meet the Pharmacist, not the store manager. keke

When I saw Gerard, I was a tiny bit scared. I don't really remember what happened, but i think the whole day we did the normal intro stuff n all. n OUH, he released me early that day coz we really had nothing to do. At the end of the day, I found him to be friendly and nice.

hmmm..instead of telling stories, I think I should post my tweets and put up pics. =)

READ FROM THE LAST TWEET

A bit weird but yall will have to read it from bottom to top

hheh =P

There you go, I actually learned to do telepharmacy on the first day =)

met a drug addict on the second.

Left alone with a locum pharmacist on the third =(

Helped out around the store...

...and fell sick =S

Made a mistake !! eeiiksss

bur still enjoyed myself =D hehe

Here are the pics at bedok. They were meant for my FYP. LoL

OK. NEXT. Tampines Mall. The suckiest place EVER. Really, Im not kidding. My opinion at least.

So, i hate the pharmacist there. I hate how everything seems to go wrong there. i hate how even the PT isnt helpful AT ALL. I suffered the most there. yup. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. !!!!

Nope, no pictures. Just lots of tweets about how fucked up the place is.

LoL, im not even sure if its in the right order =S..but yea..check out the date la ok?

Airport for a week. It wasnt as bad as I thought it would be. I didnt really like the pharmacist at first. But I told myself that this shouldnt be another TPM. nope. I need to make this fine for me. so yea. It was part acting and part real? I mean, I wasnt really acting throughout the week. I was really having fun at times.

Working in the transit is kindda cool. =D

I kept thinking if ONLY I still have my airport pass by the time FTI will be coming to SG. keke. LoL, actually I wouldnt know what to do either. Approach them? hmmmmmm AHHAHAH.

No pictures here either ..not much tweets either.

NEXT. and LAST. =D IMM.

what can i say? hmmm.. I think I just do a lot of studying there. This and that. All the normal stuff. sigh~~~

Same thing la.

In the end they all wrote good comments. and thats it. ITS OVER. and till now I still hvnt get my last pay =_=". WTF watsons.

Too attached

2011-06-10T15:53:00.002+08:00

Well. What can I say. They are part of my life now. Its been like 3 years and almost 4. SIGH~~
and KPOP changed A LOT in all those years. Not kidding. People used to give me the WTF, u listen to that kind of music? and they will be like NOT MY TASTE. and now, look at ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO SAID THAT. seriously, WTF to YOU back. Then can act like those pretty boys are everything =_=.
URGH.
...... ...... ......
My treasures are BACK ! They have been promoting in JAPAN which I so LOVE <3 I feel that they are more appreciated in Japan than in Korea. There are a lot of their own composition in their Japanese album and Hongki wasnt the ONLY one singing. FTI got FIRST PLACE on ORICON CHART which they totally deserve. They are the first and only foreign artist to get NO 1 for the chart in just 1 week. =) I was so proud, and still am.

They returned back to Korea and released a new mini album ( WHICH I JUST GOT MINE) . Love the song.

The MV is confusing. I till dont get it. and my yellow haired goat on a fire truck? Wae jaejin aahhhh~~~ ??
They have been promoting for like 3 weeks now? but they still ahvent win anything =( me so sad. B2ST with Fiction has been on top and even though im happy for them, I still feel like crying ="(

From all the performances, I think this is one of heir best.

I feel so bad for Hongki, he hasnt been feeing well, and he couldnt reach that high note in a few of the performance sigh~~~

...... ...... ......

B2ST and FTI are like Best friends, and theyre so cute together.. HAHAH. awesome fanservice. =D

FTI is releasing another new JAPANESE song in July =D I cant wait for that. But I hope they will win at least ONCE before they finish promoting Hello Hello. 7 of June was their 4th anniversary and I was so sad that day coz they didnt win. They deserve this. so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE win at least once =(

Its US again

2011-06-10T15:52:00.001+08:00

123456 ! =D

I love these people . . .

AND I uploaded our 12 mins lame video =P
should I post the link here? or should I just embed it?
hmmmmmmm

This video is unlisted. Only those with the link can see it.

Coming soon

2011-04-24T07:20:00.002+08:00

This blog is dead

BUT ill BE BACK

SOOON ~~~

my 100 qns

2011-02-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
- "Treatment of severe rhythm disorder" .. AHAHHA can anyone guess what i have nearest to me? the freakin mims.

Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
- I did it in a few ways and i touched e wall, nothing, nothing and finally my NYP silat medal. sigh~

Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
-I was blogging, and crying =S why do you think im wasting my time with this?

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
- The last thing i saw on tv was the unit [that means i wasnt even concentrating with so much on my mind] but i watch oh my school last yesterday night.

Without looking, guess what time it is.
- 6pm? i know i wasted so much time including right now when i could be studying.

Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
-6:04pm. im right =D

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
-The indonesian new. HAHHA i straint my ears till thousands of kilometers . im so lame.

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
-5 hours ago. I went to school. My life is just that boring. zzZZzz

Did you dream last night?
-I dont remember

Do you remember your dreams?
- Most of he time NO. i have to write it down right after i wake up if not it will just be another dream.

When did you last laugh?
-yesterday while watching oh my school. Hongki and simon D is <3

Do you remember why / at what?
HONGKI and SIMON D. theyre freakin funny and awesome !!

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
-A board. see how boring i am? my posters are under my bed !

Seen anything weird lately?
-yea, right now !! a white pigeon is staring at me from e roof top.

What do you think of this quiz?
-I wouldnt be doing this if i feel like doing anything else.

What is the last film you saw?
- Honey i blew up the kids.. old school . hahaa

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
-I wanna live beside the beach.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
-I really cant think of anything. Ill spent it on my family and friends. =)

Tell me something about you that most people don't know.
-Someone recently told me that im rude to guys =S

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
-I really dont know

Do you like to dance?
- yes. very much ^^

Would you ever consider living abroad?
- yes. ive been thinking about that . But i guess i love my singapore a lot. hehe

Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
-nope.

Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
-a sales person.

What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
-FTI video. oi ahve tins of them

Last time you swam in a pool?
-Too long. reminds me of ayun ~~

Type of music you like most?
-Kpop.

Type of music you dislike most?
-Ectreme rock or extreme slow.

Are you listening to music right now?
-nope

What color is your bedroom carpet?
-Red and White

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?
-I would buy new furnitures, change the floorings, and re paint the house.

What was the last thing you bought?
-oatmeal. hehe. makes me hungry.

Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
-yes. my dad's.

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
-YES.

Do you have a garden?
-Nope, but i used to be incharge of e garden in my sec school. LOL, old memories coming back now.

Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
-YES. hahahaha

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
-What time izzit.

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
-Jaejin?

Who sent the last text message you received?
-Kak nadia.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
- A store that have EVERYTHING.

What time is bed time?
-Tired time is bedtime

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
-NOPE. =_+

How many tattoos do you have?
-None

If you don't have any, have you ever thought of getting one?
-Not at all.

What did you do for your last birthday?
-SAdly. Nothing.

Do you carry a donor card?
-No i dont. i wish to tho.

Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
-I eat dinner alone.

Is the glass half empty or half full?
-half empty.

What's the farthest-away place you've been?
-Bali

When's the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
-NEVER. no garden remmber?

Have you ever won a trophy?
Yes.netball and captains ball =)

Are you a good cook?
-I can cook .. good? its edible i guess.

Do you know how to pump your own gas?
-No. ahaha, i dont own a car.

If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
Prophet muhammad SAW.

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
-THIRTEEN YEARS.

Do you touch-type?
-yes. sometimes i do look tho.

What's under your bed?
-My posters. hahah

Do you believe in love at first sight?
-NOPE

Think fast, what do you like right now?
-Chocolate? hahah

Where were you on Valentine's day?
-Nowhere. my love story have even started yet.

What time do you get up?
-6 am.

What was the name of your first pet?
-kuci.

Who is the second to last person to call you?
-joash. and i dont remmber why =S

Is there anything going on this weekend?
-yes. a birthday surprise!!

How are you feeling right now?
-better.

What do you think about the most?
-Kpop

What time do you get up in the morning?
-didnt this qn came up b4?

If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
-Right after.

Who would you tell first?
-My family.

What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?
-Repunzel

Do you sing in the shower?
-Nope, the whole block can hear me. =S

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
-again?

What do you do most when you are bored?
- Youtube is the best invention.

What do you do for a living?
-I study for a living. haha. and get allowances.

Do you love your job?
-Im gonna hate it.

What did you want to be when you grew up?
-pharmacist?

If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?
-a paharmacist.

Which came first the chicken or the egg?
-chicken

How many keys on your key ring?
-2.and its not even on a ring.

Where would you retire to?
-huh?

What kind of car do you drive?
- no car.

What are your best physical features?
-thats a hard qn =S

What are your best characteristics?
-i guess i can be friendly =s or not.

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?
-britain

What kind of books do you like to read?
-Sad.

Where would you want to retire to?
-tsk.

What is your favorite time of the day?
-sleep time.

Where did you grow up?
-SINGAPORE. and still am in singapore

How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
-birthplace is at KKh and im at home.

What are you reading now?
-The question.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?
-BOTH.and im notkidding.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
-ewww. no

Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
-yes. cant everyone do that?

Do you have pets?
-nope. not anymore.

How many rings before you answer the phone?
-No rings.haha, a song.

What is your best childhood memory?
-The one that i always remember is when my dad carried my to look at e binoculars. i cant even remember where.

What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
-none.

Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
-NONE. how baring am i?

What is most important in life?
- family and friends.

What Inspires You?
-I should start looking for the answer.

nothing to look forward to

2011-02-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

I cried the moment I saw my IAP posting.

I got WATSON for the first 3 months and NYP DRUG STORE for the next 3.
Do you have any idea how sad I am?

I am not looking forward to my test, not looking forward to my exams, not looking forward to attachments. and the toppings for my treat is there is no fucking holiday either.
My life just ...........ENDED.

I ve always wanted to work in the hospitals. That is where I really wanna be attached to.

and i was thinking of atleast expanding my social circle for once and you give me NYP DS?

SHIT.

Kak nadia say I will enjoy retail. Im not sure.

now that ive calm down a lil, truthfully, at first i was really sad, but then i told my self that it wouldnt be really bad as i think it would.
It will still be about pharmacy. and i do enjoy it.
Its just, why both retail?

There is just something about hospitals and such. It went back to why im even in this course.
Getting both retail just is too sad a fact for me to accept.

At last i know, i still have to accept this.
Well, as long as people wont rub it on my face how fucked up it is, i guess i will be fine later.
reda ~~~~~
I still need time tho.

A change

2011-02-01T17:27:00.002+08:00

I guess a lot happened in my life lately.

A lot of drama about me and silat.
I think too much. Im too emotional.
but if it doesnt mean so much to me, i wouldnt have cried that much.
It wasnt an easy decision.

I havent been coming to silat trainings either. I do miss it tho.
But school have been so busy that i just cant find the time.
OR its just that, if i were to find the time, i could just squeeze a training or 2 in all the times that i didnt come,
but truthfully, i cant face anyone rite now.

I dont know.
I dont wanna think about it anymore.

I will come soon tho, when im free from all the hectics in my life.

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What else have been happening?
I had a BIG HUGE FIGHT with hani.

Another drama, I cried a lot.
it was a misunderstanding.
I guess everyone get mad and sad and twitter just makes it worst.
Twitter have officially ruin my life.
But i still cant delete it ho.
But if anyone realise, i dont tweet as much anymore.
Even for days.

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Personal problems.
A big one.
I need a CHANGE

I dont know how.

she

2011-01-19T06:23:00.000+08:00

I love it when he says I wanna be your last

Life's a Bitch

2011-01-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

It will always be.

FUCK

Im sorry but im Running Away ~ ~

As far as I can.

Lets see how far I can get.

Mystery remains eternal

2011-01-02T12:32:00.000+08:00

Its 2011 ~~
Is the world going to end next year? Or is it not?

It has been 18 years since I started my journey into this labyrinth of life,
I have been walking slowly into each pathway in every corner,
discovering new paths, wondering where it leads me to.

Trying to find the right way is has been some what frustrating,
I frequently found myself turning into the wrong corner,
always leading to an end.
Those are at the point of time where I felt like giving up,
I felt anger, sadness and despair
I regretted every second since I made that turn into the corner
Dissapointed with myself, I wish I could turn back.
But I couldn't find my way back in this complicated labyrinth.
All I could do was find a new pathway.
Away from all of this.

There are times where I found hope.
Every corner I turned into leads to another bright corner
I felt like this time, this time I could really be walking in the right direction.
Everything seems perfect.

I was right,
no, I was wrong,
Another mistake,
I lead myself into a dark path,
I wanted to cry then,
The dark could lead be anywhere.

well, the dark does not always mean a scary monstrous end,
In the dark is where I fight myself,
Fighting is like a compass in the night,
I learned to be courageous,
Moving on after a fall,
Never giving up till I find the light again.

That has been my journey . .
My Life has been like a LABYRINTH WITH NO BEGINNING OR END, JUST FULL OF NEW PATHS TO DISCOVER, WHERE MYSTERY REMAINS ETERNAL.

Happy New Year

2011-01-01T03:27:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year ^^

Enjoy ~ ~

FT Island and CN Blue

FT Island and REI

SURPRISE =D

I was so happy this aired during new year .. keke

was searching for the video like mad once it aired ...

OMH, i wanna break in to their dorm XD

At the end Minho was like " WHY DOES EVERYONE NOT WEAR PANTS?" hahahahhaha

he was referring to Hongki and Seunghyun ..

oooOOOOOOooooooooo

Hongki and Eunhyuk cracked me up XD XD

. . 2010

2010-12-31T11:42:00.004+08:00

here is the continuation of my last post . .
so, saves the best for the last . .
the biggest event that took place in 2010 =D

Lets relieve the Dream

23 10 2010, so what is this date?
if its so big of an event, why didnt i post it up?
hahah, personal reason XD
but I will now ..

I remember clearly how I did not even plan to go to this Huge concert.
It was too expensive for the standing ticket, It wasnt just FTI and i know i might not be able to enjoy since there are going to be too many people pushing around..
So how did I ended up going?
The day before the concert, I went out with riz who has been excited for over a months for this concert. She even lined up for the tickets. It was crazy to get the standing tickets.
We were looking at some posters, when we saw a sign saying CONCERT TICKETS AVAILABLE. and guess what? We asked the guys and apparently they have the catagory A, and the exact same pit as Riz. And its not like i dont have 300 bucks on me. I do, but i have always thought the tix was too expensive.
So why did I buy that again? HAHAA
I CANT POSSSIBLY RESIST IT. I mean, the tix was right in front of me !! Its either I buy it or not.
and I was dying to see jaejin and my lovelies <3
sigh~~~
Well I didnt regret it. Even thought it IS freakin $258.

The next day, Riz and her friends went earlier than me, I came later.
I ended up waaayyyy far behind them.
It was really sad and troublesome since the people in front wont let anyone cut the queue.
. . .but . .
I still ended up cutting the queue to the front with Riz XD XD
haha, well, i think i am just lucky. Really .
It was raining, we had to move inside.
while moving in i quickly join riz. phew ~~ I did felt guilty though. I mean they all came way earlier than me.
But i juz had to. hahah.
Aniways, a lot of sitting down and waiting and FINALLLLLLYYYYYY.
IT WAS TIME !!!

Should i Just post up my videos instead of posting what happened?
I mean .. WE WERE FREAKIN NEAR THEM !!!
U HAVE JUZ GOTTA SEE THIS. hahah
I cant believe how near I was .. hehehhh

but even so .. OBVIOUSLY, the day of my first FTI fanmeeting, showcase and fansign was WAYYYY MORE AAWESOME. I mean, I told jaejin i LOVE HIM, hongki waved at me like only 5 steps away, I stalked them while they were practising and We followed then EVERYWHERE till the airport. and a lot more more more awesome times ...
Those memories were definitely way more awesome than this concert even though I was in the first line XD

aniways .. here are the videos =P

My FTI vids are not that stable because this fan girl was screaming her lungs out .. hehehhe ^^

Will update, shinee, DNA, Infinite, Big Bang and SNSD soon ~~~~~ Uploading really takes a LOOONNNGGGG TIME ~~~~~~~~

My Most stable fancam for big bang .. kekekee

My Most fav Fancam from Big bang ^^

and next will probably be .. SNSD?
will update soon ~~

2010

2010-12-27T23:25:00.001+08:00

This year, in the past few week, I have not been posting much .. the number of drafts in my posts are increasing, I have not updated any on my blog . .
Its not like nothing happened .. I don't even know where to start . . but before 2011, ill write it all out, post it up. I dont want to forget it. Memories, happy or sad ~

Lets start with 25 September
Happy Birthday to me ?
Well ~~ This year, I dont like my birthday.
I did look forward to it before, but it was just disappointing. Now that I think about it, NOTHING happened on my 18th bday. I did nothing to even celebrate on that day. sigh~
Mom gave me $$ though ..
And its so sad that im 18 this year =(
YES, I dont want to be 18, I want to be 4.
And now 2010 is going to be over, Im going to be 19 next year.
aish ~ ~ I dont want to be an adult yet.

Ramadhan 2010
This year, It does not feel like ramadhan. Everything is so different. Exam period fell on fasting month. All I did was study, stoned out, study and thats that.
There was this one night where I was sudying and it just didnt feel right. It could be"malam lailatul Qadr"
Well, but dont know. Exam period is just stressful ~~

2nd Year 1st Semester Exam
OMG, i am now im 2nd year, 2nd semester getting ready for attachment next year. !! Tim flies soo fast.
After all that studying, i didnt do so bad. But it wasnt good though. GPA sucks. Im getting a lot of pressure with the 3.9 to enter University talk ~~

I NEED to increase that 3.17 to at least 3.6 !! GGAAAAHHH !!!!!

Syawal 2010
This year, Last paper was 1 day before Hari Raya, imagine that. Haha. I wasnt ready for syawal at all.
Here are some pictures from Hari Raya Aildilfitri 2010 ~~

With GF <3

Silat Members

And thats all for raya ~~

New Semester, New CLassmates, New mentor? =(
Right after the new semester started, Miss Annie had to leave =(
So now miss Yong is our new mentor..
We finally got divided into different tracks..
Pharmacy practice and Clinical Trials..
Unfortunately, Gee got into Clinical Trials while the rest of us are in PT track ..
SAd =(
Its been 8 weeks. Everyone seems to be settling in well.
Gee Force seems a lot quieter without gee.
And we dont talk as much.
15 minutes per week? wow, compared to the past semsters, we were talking 24/7 .. hahah

Recently someone told me that I HAVE NO LIFE.
sad ~~
I DO !! .. well thats what i argued back .. but i dont have much proof do i ?
I go to school, do my work, do my projects, force myself to Silat and spent most of my time on Youtube.
I go out once in a while though a LOT lesser than when we were in year 1. I have not even watch he 2 movie that had been waiting for sooo long.. HP and Narnia. Ok, this sux !! zzZZZzzzzzzzzzzzz

Today 27122010, there is suppse to be a class outing. I wanted to go. I really do.
but ...
aishhhhhhh
This sux.
Im just like that, so yea. oh wells, i didnt go. so no memories with the new classmates.

Deepavali at Gee's Place <3
So we celebrated deepavali at gee's pace this year.!! my first time.
I love her mom's cooking !! yummyyyy <3
I can survive as a vegetarian anytime i think .. heheheee
We went there with drama people.. hahaa
AWKWARD MUCH?
yea, it was, but i got better aniways . . .

Hari Raya Haji
This year after we went to grandma's place, we gathered at aunt's place at bedok.
Awesome time with family.. I love gatherings with my mom's side ^ ^
oooOOOooo , and i love how all my pics turn out in the abum <3 <3

Bro's graduation

This year, my brother graduated from secondary school ^^

I cant believe nobody in my family is a secondary school student anymore.

aisshh~~ i feel so grown up.

His N level results were quite good =)

Well, im proud.

He chose ITE west, electrical course and he got it.

He will start school on the10th of January. That is fast.

Hahaaa, oh wells, now secondary school is over, I hope he can grow up to be more mature.

ANd i will continue my post soon ~ ~ ~
It cant be that im done rite?? hahahaha
SAves the best for the last ! ! ! hint hint, its a dream come true <3 sigh ^ ^

so today

2010-12-19T21:57:00.002+08:00

Because it meant so much

2010-12-19T19:49:00.001+08:00

I always, always wonder if Silat was the right choice.

Ayo the rhythm when you feel down

2010-11-26T20:27:00.000+08:00

[Jonghyun] Sometimes, you walk alone
You stop for a moment and take a look around
[Onew] When you’re tired of the feeling of being alone
Follow me then, follow me, me, eh

[Taemin] You fall asleep alone again
[Minho] You try hard to doze off
You close my worn out eyes
[Key] When you still can’t sleep
Because of the many, many thoughts
Follow me then, follow me, me, eh

*[All] A-yo, when it’s tough
Doong tah dak, lean on the rhythm, oh
With our song for you
Everyone a-yo, everyone a-yo

A-yo, when you can’t sleep
Tap brush it off, leave it to the rhythm, oh
With the anticipation of the unfolding tomorrow
Everyone a-yo, everyone a-yo*

[Taemin] Your IQ is two digits, test scores are also two digits
School rank is three digits, why in the world, why, why
[Key] Throughout the entire day, only nagging returns
What are you doing at your desk today, why why

[Jonghyun] During this breathless day
Even if there’s no place to rest, oh, oh
Never become weak, ah, ah
No way, no way

[Onew] Even if there’s no one
To understand your grieving heart, oh, oh
Never give up, ah, ah
Your way, your way

*Repeat

[Key] Person I trusted, I gave you my best
But your love that changes
Like seasons do, bye, goodbye
[Minho] Saying that you don’t have time
The lies I endured every day
[Taemin] Pretending like I didn’t know
I believed that you return back then, back then

[Onew] Even if tears sometimes
Cover both your eyes
Never become weak, ah, ah
No way, no way

[Jonghyun] Even if it seems there’s no end
To sleepless night, oh, oh
Never give up, ah, ah
Your way, your way

*Repeat

[Key] Woo~
When it’s tough, think
About who will greet you
As I wait for you to come
I’m smiling for you, hey

[Jonghyun] Woo~
When you can’t sleep, wait
For another unfolding tomorrow
[Onew] When this night passes
[Jonghyun] You’ll come to me

[Jonghyun] Sometimes, you walk alone
[Taemin] You stop for a moment and take a look around
[Onew] When you’re tired of the feeling of being alone
Follow me then, follow me, me, eh

[All] A-yo, when it’s tough
Doong tah dak
Lean on the rhythm, oh
With our song for you

Bring it side to side, your sad tears
Side to side, all your pain
Tap, brush it off
Leave it to the rhythm, oh
Everyone a-yo, everyone a-yo

Guess who is back ????

2010-11-11T20:15:00.000+08:00

The day that OH WON BIN is finally back !!!

I thought i wouldnt see the day he make a comeback.

Its been 2 years.

I love you and I love you

i see me in you

2010-11-06T08:30:00.000+08:00

There is this girl.

I just dont like her.

HAH.

evil arnt I ?

but do you know ?

I SEE ME IN HER.

we have got more similarities than I think.

In fact, what I hate about her is what I see in me.

Aint much going on in my life . . mayb?

2010-11-02T07:45:00.001+08:00

The more you think you are mature enough to be an adult, the more you are not.

I realise how immature I am these days.

I feel like a pathetic, irresponsible, stupid lil brat.

So much that i do not know of.

Then i told myself, im only 18.

EXCUSES.

I've been making up excuses a lot these days.

I really need to change.

Or that, i changed, and i need to go back.

Dont give up so easily wyda.
Your life is not meant to be this way.

What u call talent

2010-10-27T20:36:00.002+08:00

censored

2010-10-25T21:00:00.001+08:00

im sorry if u read my last post ..
i was mad.
ill put it away.
not viewable now.
eeiikksssss

The shopaholic that i am

2010-10-01T14:46:00.000+08:00

Bought my self a new 500 GB portable hard drive.

Cost me around $110.

Its totally worth it.

Wheee~~ its been a while since bought myself something new.

little little things doesn't count !!

Now the only thing left on my shop list is a new bag.

Maybe puma or Nike.

But if I cant find any that suits me then any brand will do.

2 more weeks till the new semester.

I gotta get my bag soon !!

no secrets

2010-09-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

Whatever here, in this blog, is no secret.
Its meant for anyone and everyone to read.

IF I have a secret, u wont even know that I do.
SSSSHHHHHH
coz its my secret, that I have a secret.

after 3 months . .

2010-09-30T09:14:00.001+08:00

I finally came back to training.

I realise that I lost more than just my stamina in those 3 months that I was MIA.
Here is a story.

Truth, I lost my confidence in Silat, I lost that feeling of family with the team, I lost my will to come for every training, I lost my stamina which I had built for a whole year and the worst thought that I had was to quit.

I kept thinking the times when going to CCA was everything. I enjoyed myself, though I cried and might have suffered a tiny bit. Times when i gave my all to doing best even though I know i'm far from anything they wanted in Silat. I built up confidence, and stamina and I really, REALLY, I enjoyed my time there with everyone.

What 3 months had done to me really scares me. What my overly self concious mind had done to me is even more terrifying. What I felt at that time when my confidence was drying up fast, too fast. What my mind tells me about my team is too frightening and horrifying for me to say. Being self concious has given me more negative than a positive effect in my life.

Then again. I came yesterday. It came back. I enjoyed it. I'm really happy now that tears can fall. Training was not hard. Now that I think about it, I was hard on myself. I was having the wrong mindset yesterday. Maybe I forgot how to set it since I didn't come for 3 months now. Felt my stamina dying.

Everything was gone. All that i felt in those 3 months. GONE. I feel like I'm part of the family again . I feel excited when I knew I was going to suffer. I was actually physically n emotionally mismatched. My stamina killed me before I could finish my run. But its alright. Its fine because I know I'm going to do better next time ^^

What's more interesting about yesterday was that I felt confidence building up. I really have to thank Hakim. HE always knows how to build up my confidence. Just talking to him, hearing words that help me build up my foundation. He is someone who understands others well. Push them. Help them. I think he doesn't even realise how much difference I felt after that 5 minutes talk. so, THANK YOU.

I love my team, family, to bits and pieces.
Even though I have thought of quitting before,
I never, NEVER, ever once regretted joining Silat,
and meeting the awesome people.

Not going to be in NYP for long now.
I want to treasure our time.
My time,
In NYP SILAT TEAM.
<3

after 3 months . .

2010-09-30T08:36:00.001+08:00

I finally came back to training.

I realise that I lost more than just my stamina in those 3 months that I was MIA.
Here is a story.

Truth, I lost my confidence in Silat, I lost that feeling of family with the team, I lost my will to come for every training, I lost my stamina which I had built for a whole year and the worst thought that I had was to quit.

I kept thinking the times when going to CCA was everything. I enjoyed myself, though I cried and might have suffered a tiny bit. Times when i gave my all to doing best even though I know i'm far from achieving anything.

cant breath !!

2010-09-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

GET ME OUT !!

Had a nightmare yesterday.
I was in the lift too long. It went pass my level and up till level 20+
It wouldn't STOP.
I remember panicking.
I couldn't hear anything.
Then it abruptly stopped.
There was a tiny hole.
It grew.
Felt like I was sucked out.
I was finally free.
I can finally breath.

lets rock !!!

2010-09-28T11:40:00.001+08:00

Luv this all too much .. hahah

2 months worth of hard work

2010-09-28T11:14:00.003+08:00

There you go .. thats my results for year 2 sem 1.
My hard work paid off.. hehe
a B+ for pharmaco ?? hahahhaha im too happy already.
I have a feeling all G.F pass all module . .
and ..
i got into pharmaceutical practice tract next semester .. class PS0903.

Kindda sad coz gee got into Clinical trials track class 0901. =(

but she is happy she got clinical trials .. =)

I have to constantly remind myself the reason why we go to poly.

It doesnt matter if we get into different classes,

its how we manage to be the same even though we get separated.

Atikah and Riz is in my class ^^ .. waiting for Hani and Sya now . .

We should celebrate soon. . heheh

the next big thing

2010-09-27T20:15:00.001+08:00

A Birthday present from Cekda and my niece Nadrah ^^

i want u ~~~~~

2010-09-27T19:12:00.000+08:00

This is too cute ..

Guess who i want for my birthday ^^

Jeajin is driving me crazy HAHAHHAHAH

it will be a double treat if Seunghyun is there too.

my dorks =P

일상에 보고 싶다 ~~

i want to see you everyday ^^

하지 말래요

2010-09-23T14:10:00.001+08:00

HANGUL:

아마 사랑일테죠 아마 사랑이 맞죠
그런데 왜 쓰라리고 왜 눈물이 앞설까요
해서는 안될 사랑 있다고 절대 난 믿지 않았죠
그녀의 다른 사랑에 왜 영원을 믿는거죠

하지 말래요 시작 하지 말래요
내게 오지 않는 데요
모두가 말래요 사랑 하지 말래요
갖지 못한 데요

마치 청개구리 처럼 하지 말라 할수록
더 강하게 사랑 하고
마치 운명처럼 우리 느껴지는 나를 말리지 마요

숨어서 오래토록 바라고 원한 나를 모르는 그대
아파도 자꾸 바라길 난 아프고 싶은 거죠
이런 나를 모르고 시작하지 말래요
내게 오지 않는 데요
이런 맘 모르고 사랑하지 말래요
갖지 못한데요

마치 청개구리 처럼 하지 말라 할수록
더 강하게 사랑하고
마치 운명처럼 우리 느껴지는 나를 말리지 마요
언제 말을 들었나요 내가 하기 싫다고
이 사랑이 끝나나요
언제 사랑이란 맘을 으질한게 이겨본적 있나요

ROMANIZATION:

Ama sarangilthejyo ama sarangi madjyo
guronde we ssurarigo we nunmuri aphsolkkayo
hesonun andoel sarang itdago jolde nan midji anhatjyo
gunyoui darun sarange we yongwonul midnungojyo

Hajimalleyo shijaghajimalleyo
nege oji anhnundeyo
moduga malleyo saranghajimalleyo
gadji mothandeyo

Machi chonggeguri chorom hajimalla halsurog
do ganghage saranghago
machi unmyongchorom uri nukkyojinun narul mallijimayo

Sumoso orethorog barago wonhan narul morunun gude
aphado jakku baragil nan aphugo shiphun gojyo
iron narul morugo shijaghajimalleyo
nege oji anhnundeyo
iron mam morugo saranghajimalleyo
gadji mothandeyo

Machi chonggeguri chorom hajimalla halsurog
do ganghage saranghago
machi unmyongchorom uri nukkyojinun narul mallijimayo
onje marul duronnayo nega hagi shilhdago
i sarangi kkuthnanayo
onje sarangiran mamul ujirhange igyobonjog innayo

TRANSLATION:

This probably is a real love, this definitely is love
However why this is so painful to us and why thus do these tears come out?
I didn't believe it when they had told me that
you were a different love that could not be worked out by me
So why am I had believing on that other girl's love?

They told us to stop it, they told us to don'r start it
They told me that you were not coming with me, they told us to stop all
They told us to not love like this, they told us that we could not love together

Only like a council guys, as much as they told us to not do
But my love gets growing up even stronger than this
And please don't stop me just for be thinking that we had fate

Were you whon didn't know about me when I hid and looked for you from flirt
And even when that hurt me a lot I wished for more and more pain

They really don't know me, and they told us to don't start it
They told me that you were not coming with me
they even don't know my weak heart
And they told us to not love like this
they told us that we could not love together

Only like a council guys, as much as they told us to not do
But my love gets growing up even stronger than this
And please don't stop me just for be thinking that we had fate

When did you hear this things?
That I promise you that I don't wanna do it

That our love has ended
Did you even have won my love?

Bus ride to FREEDOM

2010-09-21T11:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was our class outing. Might be PS0903 last outing as US.
Chances are, we are going to be separated next semester. =(

Had loads of fun with Gee, Hani and Riz. Its just the 3 of us again. Everyone else is busy . .
Spent 70% of our time cam whoring. LoL
Had a BLAST.
Played awesome card games with the class.
Got scolded by a security guard. HAH

Ate dinner at Long John,
and head up to our usual.
. . . . . WALKED to our usual.
and its not even the usual place.
At least its along our river. HaHa

and i LOVE this pic ^^

new look

2010-09-21T11:25:00.000+08:00

Decided to change my blog skin since i have nothing to do.

I know, u know, that I DO NOT have nothing to do,
tsk, I have to clean my room, vacuum the whole house, mop the floor, do house chores,
but i have NOTHING entertaining to do.

Is Cyber dying?
or am I?
I want entertainment ! !

I wake up too early,
Today, i woke up, made breakfast, eat breakfast, watch NCIS, switch on lappy, find blogskin, spent hours editing, finally done with it and IT IS STILL 1120AM. not even lunch time. HAH.
WTH.

Kuih Raya on the table is calling me to eat them.
DONT BE SURPRISE IF I GROW FAT.

calling you

2010-09-20T09:31:00.001+08:00

Universal studios !!

2010-09-18T14:11:00.001+08:00

YOG volunteer night part at Universal studios ^^

Went with the PS09 and PS08 students and the lecturers. hehe

Universal Studios was awesome !!!!

We didnt go on much rides. But the ones we went on was WOW.

no regrets.

Just wish we had came earlier and could go on more rides.

The Steven Spielberg's audio stuff was COOL

its like being in a real storm .

Went to the mummy rides.

the LONGEST line ever but the BEST ride.

Then the Jurasic Park's Water ride.

I was soaked WET.

I dont look wet, but I was. and it was freezing !!!!!
ouh wait, i look wet in here.

Then Shrek 4D was AWESOME.

Spiders !!! aaaaahhhhhh

hahaaaaaaa

the Food was GREAT.

The normal drink size for a meal American style was HUGE.

ate the classic cheeseburger.

i just wish the roller coaster ride was open . .

We were almost stranded on the tiny island. LoL.

Last monorail was at 1130.

Last bus at 12am.

guess what?

we couldnt make it for both.

ended up in an EXTREMELY LONG TAXI QUEUE LINE.

took taxi home with Mr kelvin, hexiang and shin.

wheeeeeeee

had an awesome day.

Selamat Hari Raya

2010-09-18T13:51:00.000+08:00

Raya finally came.
Exam finally over.
LoL it ended 1 day before raya.
Spent my WHOLE Ramdhan under pile of notes.

Raya this year was just like before.
Im just older. haha
Not a kid no more.
No $$
Not much. LoL

Nothing much to post about either.
Went out on the first 2 days of raya and had an open house on the third.
Its just Raya.
Im just happy to meet up with my family from both sides.
^^

Mom's Side

Me and Sis

. . and bro.

Dad and Bro

Me and dad

Me, Sis and Mom. ^^

Me and Sis

Me and Bro

Dad and Nenek

. . and Cuzzin

more cuzzins

and more pics.

Funny pic

they r up to something . . LoL

Whats funny is that he did a smirk, not a smile.

My suskso baby!!

and wait .

i forgot,

رمضان كريم

2010-09-18T13:19:00.001+08:00

It is different this year.
Ramadhan was different.

A lot of regrets.

. . .

Hope next year is a lot better.

Im still a student ~ ~

2010-09-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

I have not posted about anything much since august.
and IM BACK !!
. . . and its almost October . . oups.
I have a 2 months worth of long post to update. hahha

Lets start with the reason why I ignored this favourite page of mine since almost 2 months ago ~ ~

From August 9 onwards, for 3 weeks, was my holiday. supposedly.
WHY?
coz I had 6 big modules to study for the EXAMS!!!
If that was not stressful enough, i had YOG duties to do.
The fact that its a night duty takes up alot of time coz i considered it 2 days.
sleep n not get tired, stay up at night, go home and sleep again.

and I tried my best NOT to study last min.
I tried to force myself to study.
but I had no mood at all. NON.
.. .. .. .. lets just put it as I go through hell that 3 weeks struggling to memorise and understand the freakin drugs.
On the last week of "study week", i was studying day and night.
My brain was giving up =S
but I didnt, coz i know that i can still take it.
I can take more than i think i can.
I know that.
I always do ^^

Oh im so glad THAT was over . .
now now. Results should be out in a week or so.
Oh CRAP.
=S
lets see how things goes.

even if the world changes ~

2010-09-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

i love you, even as time goes by
i love you, even if the world changes
no one can replace you, even you know that
my love can’t rest a day
i can’t live a moment without you
i can breathe only if you’re with me
i love you forever and ever

the words i say not with my eyes, but with my heart
i’ll love you forever, even if ten years pass by
like a star that lights up your night
even if i were to be born again
i’ll only love you, like this ~

daebak !!!!!

2010-09-05T17:43:00.000+08:00

congratulations to my five fav boys EVER

i knew it

i KNEW IT

this album feels different

that feeling was RIGHT

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

hear me scream people

kekekekekekeke

where is he lock key?

2010-09-02T07:44:00.000+08:00

I know

HOW LONG HAS IT BEEN.

I have lots to update about

ill get freedom soon

promise

i will update

I wish I were a rock so the creek could push me down the water.

I wish I were a bird so when I fly I can land in the water and take a sip.

I wish I were a fish so I could swim in the cold water.

If I were a leaf I would fall into the water when the wind blows.

National Day

2010-08-10T08:38:00.000+08:00

Its singapore's 45th birthday !!

All those memories coming back.

I used to love screaming (singing XD) the songs together, reciting the pledge, singing the national anthem . .
what else?
dancing to new songs, wearing RED to school . .

I still so love doing all that,
but it feels different now that we are all grown up.

I did wear red though, yesterday. haha
sis made us wear red and white when we were only going to IMM.
Saw lots of car with Singapore flag hanging. So patriotic. I like =)

boredom kills.

2010-08-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

Im bored.
Entertain me.

zzzZZzzzzzzzz

Its the last day of school.
n when school reopens in 3 weeks,
its EXAM !!
hurray ??

im not ready and 3 weeks is not enough.
tsk.

my life is so boring.

not so simple . . .

2010-08-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

Im not doing the usual things i do anymore.
I dont enjoy it as much now.

Now i can just say that i dont feel like tweeting anymore.
I used to be addicted to that.
Lots of things makes me hate it.

I am realising A LOT now.
About everything around me.
Life isnt so simple after all i guess.

Forceful Insistent

2010-07-24T19:23:00.002+08:00

Confused much?

So many things going on.
I cant seem to catch up to any.
Its like hello n goodbye
Cant seem to breath in between.

Common Test Results are out.
Lecturers think that we are Einstein with brain enough to understand and memorise EVERYTHING.
Having one of the lowest cut off point in school ??
Being one of the worst batch of PS group EVER ??
EO kept saying that we are not DUMB.
We can score if we study. -_-"

JUST SO YOU KNOW I STUDY SO DAMN HARD AND STILL SCORED SO BADLY FOR IT.
IM NOT DUMB. I KNOW.
BUT LETS JUST BE REALISTIC HERE CAN ?
DID U SEE HOW MANY PEOPLE SCORED A FREAKIN "F" FOR TEST 1 ?
90% OF US.
AND SCORING A "B" FOR THE SECOND DOES'NT HELP COZ THE FREAKIN "F" BROUGHT IT DOWN TO A DAMN "D"
AGAIN I STUDIED SO DAMN HARD !!

2 more important test is coming up.
Im so busy this week that i feel so LOST.

Silat investiture is this Saturday.
Truth is that my leg still hurts.
Insyaallah it will be better by then.
For now . . .
The pain is killing me.
Acting like im superman wont last me that long.
If it hurts. IT HURTS.

The performance.
Sometimes i feel like screaming so loud that everyone will go deaf.
Its frustrating.
IM TRYING MY BEST.
but i cant seem to remember things that i should.
The pain is NOT helping either.
I feel so lost there in the crowd.

The two week is filled with test n preparations for investiture.
I can do this.
I wont breakdown.

I dont feel like myself now days.
Define Happy.
Im so far away from it.
Im lost and depressed.
Sad eh?

12 of September will be the last of this semester.
I cant wait.
By then, lets see if im even close to happy.
Results should be out by then shouldnt it?

Dont Cry.
Please Dont.

electrifying shock

2010-07-18T19:17:00.002+08:00

My right hip hurts so bad right now.
At sudden movement, it feels like electric shock !!
but it doesnt hurt when i walk or do normal stuff.
I have a bad feeling its e nerves.
It doesnt feel like its THAT serious.
I should wait for a few more days.

What happened was that i fell on top of the "tembong", its a hard wooden pole like kindda thing.
Hit it HARD while doing a flip.
My leg was definitely in shock i tell ya.

i hope i hope its ok soon.
performance is at the end of the month.
n hazmi wants to time our ganda tomorrow.
0.o
n i cant say no.
coz i screwed up bad on Saturday.

=(

i didnt , until . .

2010-07-18T09:13:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was horrible.
Training sucked BAD.

and its not just that.
NOT JUST THAT.

I never thought of it.
until things made me started to ask questions.

and there comes the truth.
fucking truth.

Caught a goat

2010-07-17T07:46:00.002+08:00

LOVE THE NEW HAIRSTYLE !!

Can stare all day.

Love my goat ^^

So reminds me of the fan sign.

*dies*

Im missing you

2010-07-16T08:38:00.004+08:00

I am missing a lot of people right now.

I really am.

Its sad how there seems to be a big hole in between us all.

I want to fill it back up with our laughter and happy tears.

We are keeping things from each other now.

We lost our trust.

I feel really bad.

Why not use this chance before it too late.

Things can still turn back to normal.

I dont want to regret.

The five of you are the best moments of my live since we got to know each other.

I can cry and laugh while remembering all our moments together.

I LOVE yall.

I regret my actions all this while.

Am willing to change.

Nobody is perfect.

I tend to forget.

I still have a lot to learn on how to keep a strong friendship stay forever.

Lets do this together.

ok?

they are different somehow. one day i can get along and the other day im finding faults.

we get to know each other more and it makes it obvious that we have different wants and thinks. or it might me that we dont rlly care abt each other anymore.

i feel like i dont have any energy left to actually ask or maybe the right word is care.

i felt no point talking

its not easy to change a habit that i realised its bad. and by just thinking that i will try is also useless. action. i need to show some action. which i hope i can do it sooner.

I'm alright with the fact that im not as close with you guys even when i wanted to coz im still happy to be with you guys =)

I feel much left out too. Its not only you.

Quoted from atikah's and Riz blog.

What is happening. I can cry right now after reading what everyone is thinking.

I really miss yall.

Thinking about us.

Whatever we do next, lets hope it get better than now.

My Own Treasure

2010-07-16T05:41:00.002+08:00

This is one of my favourite song from their japan debut. Kindda like the songs in anime. Love this kind of JPOP more than the too rockish type.

I miss them on variety shows. Not that they usually go either, but at least seunghyun was in MR. I need entertainment !!

Irony ~ ~ ~

2010-07-13T06:39:00.000+08:00

My Life is so boring that i have nothing much to post about.
or NOT.

. . . eeiikkss, why should i post about it aniway.

Miracle

2010-07-08T08:53:00.002+08:00

Was reminded of the old times.

When it all begin.

The start of a part of my life.

Changed my ordinary life.

Now it is like a dream.

That first time. Its a Miracle.

I felt it. I',m Glad.

Thank You

Things aren't the same now.

It got better.

But it got worst.

Still, its a miracle.

. . . =D

No Other

2010-07-07T07:58:00.001+08:00

Its a CUTE song after Bonamana n Boom which was just pure HOTNESS .